Friends

Having friends is a vital part of life; it's unhealthy to have none. But, sometimes it's hard to find them and I know just how you feel. When I started school, I think I made friends quite easily, though I'm not friends with most of them nowadays. It goes to show that friends may be easy to find but are hard to keep. Until I moved schools in the middle of Year 5 I had a friendship group, so I have had several friends in the past. Although, once I had left, most of them turned their back on me, leaving 3 still my friend. Upon entering my new school, I knew no one so, the rest of Year 5 was hard socially. I made a few friends in Year 6 but now it's like we never knew each other...

When Secondary school came around, one of my biggest fears of starting was being able to find friends. I often asked myself "Will I make friends?". And that fear became partially true.

I had 2 girls from my old school get put in the same form as me. I was delighted since I would feel a bit more comfortable starting, what seemed, a big, scary school. I would hang out with these 2 girls but at times I would feel like that they would turn me down . Half way through the year, my 'friends' made new friends that I would hang out with also. I felt awkward hanging out with them and one girl kept saying "Shut up" to me - assuming that I would take the joke. I could tell that she meant to kid around but I didn't take it that way. It got really annoying and a couple of times she'd throw my water around and I would nearly loose my temper. One lunch time, I decided that I would never sit with them again. The same girl told me "Why don't you just die already?". I was appalled. Did she ever realise that what she said was hurtful? I assumed that she was joking but that just isn't a nice thing to say anyway! After she said that to me I picked up my stuff and left. I then went to my friend and told her what happened. She was shocked as well. 

After leaving my so called 'friends' I hung out with my friend for the rest of the year. I did that in Year 8 as well, but sometimes I wouldn't be able to sit with her. She had a couple of other friends too and they didn't seem to mind me. Even though I had a friend, I still felt lonely and felt like people rejected me. I still feel that way today...

~Cupcake~